Portia De
Portia De
changed due identify largely trying
When I was 15, I changed my name legally. I think it was largely due to my struggle about being gay. Everything just didn't fit, and I was trying to find things I could identify myself with, and it started with my name.
home choices trying
I was trying to find a reason for having had to escape from the place that was my home. To convince myself of my choices, I had to make it a place that everyone should want to escape from.
style trying magazines
If you've looked at all the glamour magazines lately, all the covers are actresses. If they are on those covers, they are going to try to emulate models. That's just the way it is.
smart intellectual trying
I try to be feminine, yet intellectual and smart at the same time. You don't see enough of that
love until wait
I love the idea of marriage. I can't wait until we can take that step.
happier love
I have to be asked, but I love the idea of marriage. I'm happier than I ever thought I could be, Ellen's incredible.
amount bank certain crazy money
When I was about 16, I was crazy about this girl. I had a certain amount of money in the bank where I could put a downpayment on a rental, and I went to her with sunflowers.
I thought, I'm out in my life, that doesn't involve my public life.
time
The first time I was paparazzi'd, I thought I was being investigated for an insurance claim.
Oh, I don't have any fans. Personally? I don't have any.
ellen hard knees mind saw
I saw Ellen and my knees were weak. It was amazing. And it was very hard for me to get her out of my mind after that. Then when I saw her that night, we started talking, and that's that.
again ashamed disorders felt fully needed though work
Eating disorders are shrouded in secrecy, and there are so many things I felt very ashamed of that I could never talk about. Even though I have fully recovered, there were still things that I needed to go through again and work through.
anyone felt stopped
I really never stopped thinking about Ellen, because I just haven't felt that kind of energy with anyone in my life.
ellen photo ran took
I ran into Ellen at a photo shoot. She took my breath away. That had never happened to me in my life.