Jan Denise
Jan Denise
decide edge giver return sit stay three toward turn walking water whether yield
I still find myself walking away from the water's edge before I have what I need. I turn around and walk back toward the water ...sometimes two or three times, as if I can't decide whether to stay or leave. I will sit down more often and yield to the giver ...and when I return to my desk, I will have what I want to give.
believe believing desire god means suppose walking
Walking away from something means believing for something more. And if I want something more, I must believe it's out there (or in here). Would God give me a desire that he could not fill? Or am I to suppose another source?
accept anytime based coming committed consequences following god longer looking means natural peace reasonable somebody trusting truth walking whatever
Anytime I am looking to somebody else as my source, I'm coming from scarcity. I am no longer trusting God, or the Universe, for my harvest. It's reasonable for me to have expectations based on what somebody I trust has committed to. And it's natural for me to feel disappointed when that somebody doesn't come through. But when I feel more than disappointment, when I also feel anger, it's because I deviated from my truth. It's because I compromised my truth to get what somebody else promised. Because when I'm really following my truth, I will be at peace with the consequences ù whatever they are. I can accept somebody else's truth, but I must live my own truth. And sometimes that means walking away from a relationship.
christmas closet clutter full happy however life positive purpose rid room serve three wait whatever
I've been getting rid of some clutter anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life and making room for things that feel happy to me. Because I get to make my life whatever I want it to be. I get to make the room feel however I want it to feel. I get to make the closet as full or as spacious as I want it. And, if I have more clutter to get rid of after Christmas, I'm not going to wait a year, or two or three to do it.
closet clutter full happy however life positive purpose rid room serve three wait whatever
I've been getting rid of some clutter ù anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life ù and making room for things that feel happy to me. Because I get to make my life whatever I want it to be. I get to make the room feel however I want it to feel. I get to make the closet as full or as spacious as I want it. And, if I have more clutter to get rid of after Christmas, I'm not going to wait a year, or two or three to do it.
act along areas believe decided great line maybe realized somewhere though today
Somewhere along the line I decided that if I had something or did something that maybe it wasn't so great after all. I don't believe that anymore, but I realized today that in some areas I still act as though I do. I won't anymore. Smile. Sigh. Smile.
keeps less quest
Sometimes less is more. Our quest for more, then, keeps us from it.
feels time
Here I am again. And the familiarity feels more uncomfortable than comfortable. It's time to make a change. And, now, I have what we need to make it.
asking maybe question
When I keep asking myself the same question over and over, maybe it's not because I don't have the answer, but because I don't like the answer.
cried deeper feels god quit remind sound trying weary
I cried, and cried some more. I told God that I was weary of trying. And, God told me to quit trying. It doesn't sound like a revelation, but it feels like a revelation. Because I got it on a deeper level. I'm going to quit trying. When I forget, I'm going to remind myself. I'm going to do what I want to do; and I'm going to quit trying to do the rest. It's not the doing that's exhausting; it's the trying. The doing is exhilarating!
buried hard lack learning miracle rather reason struggle trust
I am learning to trust my instincts, rather than struggle too hard with reason ... because reason can get buried in misinformation, or too much information; and it can lack the miracle of love.
chance deal familiar feeling felt fully glad happy recognize second sooner third wondering
I am here again, in a familiar place feeling something I've felt before, wondering why it's still here, why I didn't deal with it more fully before. But I'm glad I have a second chance at it ... and I know that if I need a third chance, I'll get it. I also know that if it comes up again, I'll recognize it sooner and deal with it more readily. This is growth. And, I am happy to be alive.
believe contribute life love
I am sometimes disappointed, but I love my life ... and I must believe that the disappointments contribute something to what I love.
hear quiet truth
If we quiet our minds, we can hear the truth discerned by the heart.